Never ever EVER give up!

been having class EVERYDAY. except tuesday.

Sigh, saddening isn't it. ><

Have always wondered...

Why have i chose this road?

Will i successfully hold on till the end?

This is two VERY different things from what i wanted to study at first.

seeing my friends getting to study what they want

really make me envious.

It's so tiring to stop myself from thinking all these

as it makes me want to give up.

the 'giving up' feeling really don't feel good.

so, i've gotta keep telling myself to...

...i CAN do it! YOU can too! *winks*

Having class almost EVERYDAY

made me appreciate the times i get to spend alone even more,

i just don't feel like going out anymore,

though sometimes i wanna shop, watch movie, and socialize,

i want

but i just don't feel like it.

=="

yah, i know, it's just complicated.

i don't understand myself either. so don't ask. :P

anyways.

i've just noticed that this is only my third post of the year.

pathetic ><

heh.

whoops. :P

i guess i'll have more time to blog now since my facebook a/c and email has already been hacked.

just remembered this book that I borrowed from my former chinese teacher.

there are some parts where i would like to share :)

在社会上的生活，我们努力与每个喜欢或不喜欢的人维持良好的人际关系，
也因此我们学会了如何[适可而止的爱]。
为了让自己不受伤害，
即使内心在淌血，仍可在人前笑容可掬，
是心情荡到谷底，仍可耐住性子，只为与人维持良好的互动。

我后悔自己选择了这样的生活模式，
甚至对自己的人格产生怀疑。
我反反覆覆地思考我的后悔和怀疑，直到有一天，我发现，
心情不太好的时候，我仍然可以何人谈笑风生，
自尊心受伤的时候，我仍然可以和周围的人打成一片，当作什么事也没发生过。
比起当场和别人撕破脸，我认为现在这种贴近现实的生活说不定更好呢！

***

当我们受到刺激时，并不是因为害怕而受到刺激，
而是因为受到刺激后才感到害怕。

当我们伤心难过时，并不是因为难过而流泪，
而是流下了眼泪才感到难过。

我们并不是因为生气儿满脸通红，
而是因为满脸通红才感到气愤。

想成为一个幸福的人吗？
试试看，
即使心里没什么值得高兴或欢喜的事，
也放声笑出来吧！
很多人不知道，
幸福的人
不是因为幸福才有笑容，
而是时时面带着笑容才成为一个幸福的人。

yah, okay, i know, it's chinese :P

yes, i do read chinese books :)

(only those with lots of pictures and little words XD)

hey, but i successfully read finish this uber thick book with small words and no pictures okay. :P

hahaha..

*clap* *clap*

okay.

all the best to my classmates.

back to my books. :'(

please motivate me :)

hehe.

-the end-