Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Never ever EVER give up!


been having class EVERYDAY. except tuesday.
Sigh, saddening isn't it. ><
Have always wondered...
Why have i chose this road?
Will i successfully hold on till the end?
This is two VERY different things from what i wanted to study at first.
seeing my friends getting to study what they want
really make me envious.
It's so tiring to stop myself from thinking all these
as it makes me want to give up.
the 'giving up' feeling really don't feel good.

so, i've gotta keep telling myself to...

...i CAN do it! YOU can too! *winks*

Having class almost EVERYDAY
made me appreciate the times i get to spend alone even more,
i just don't feel like going out anymore,
though sometimes i wanna shop, watch movie, and socialize,
i want
but i just don't feel like it.
=="
yah, i know, it's just complicated.
i don't understand myself either. so don't ask. :P

anyways.
i've just noticed that this is only my third post of the year.
pathetic ><
heh.
whoops. :P
i guess i'll have more time to blog now since my facebook a/c and email has already been hacked.

just remembered this book that I borrowed from my former chinese teacher.
there are some parts where i would like to share :)

在社会上的生活,我们努力与每个喜欢或不喜欢的人维持良好的人际关系,
也因此我们学会了如何[适可而止的爱]。
为了让自己不受伤害,
即使内心在淌血,仍可在人前笑容可掬,
是心情荡到谷底,仍可耐住性子,只为与人维持良好的互动。

我后悔自己选择了这样的生活模式,
甚至对自己的人格产生怀疑。
我反反覆覆地思考我的后悔和怀疑,直到有一天,我发现,
心情不太好的时候,我仍然可以何人谈笑风生,
自尊心受伤的时候,我仍然可以和周围的人打成一片,当作什么事也没发生过。
比起当场和别人撕破脸,我认为现在这种贴近现实的生活说不定更好呢!

***

当我们受到刺激时,并不是因为害怕而受到刺激,
而是因为受到刺激后才感到害怕。

当我们伤心难过时,并不是因为难过而流泪,
而是流下了眼泪才感到难过。

我们并不是因为生气儿满脸通红,
而是因为满脸通红才感到气愤。

想成为一个幸福的人吗?
试试看,
即使心里没什么值得高兴或欢喜的事,
也放声笑出来吧!
很多人不知道,
幸福的人
不是因为幸福才有笑容,
而是时时面带着笑容才成为一个幸福的人。

yah, okay, i know, it's chinese :P
yes, i do read chinese books :)
(only those with lots of pictures and little words XD)
hey, but i successfully read finish this uber thick book with small words and no pictures okay. :P
hahaha..
*clap* *clap*

okay.
all the best to my classmates.
back to my books. :'(
please motivate me :)
hehe.

-the end-

Monday, March 22, 2010

Bad Day.

Yea.
had a really bad day yesterday.
First it was me having to take the taxi home from the station
just because my dad has mahjong to play and my bro has his games to play.
both of which are obviously more important than me
so, i took the taxi home, sitting in a taxi whose picture in the taxi is different from the guy driving, it was kinda obvious it wasn't him, coz he was an old chinese guy, whereas the picture showed a young malay guy by the name of Abdullah......
anyways. i went home, called my bro, took him some time to answer, asked him to open the gate.
it was raining quite heavily that time, but no choice have to,
wait.... wait.... wait....
the best part was, auto gate can't function coz the electricity tripped.
finally he came, but i was already soaking wet but my notes weren't
coz i was protecting it =="
(normal ppl would just use the file to protect themselves, but no, i was protecting it)

okay nevermind,
just when you thought everything is over
this NEVER talk to me friend on facebook asked to vote for her in some site.
so i was like.. okay.........fine...i'll be kind.
then she started rushing me and all...
so i clicked it... (so dumb!)
and there goes my facebook a/c.
yup! it's GONE!
so goes my Hotmail account..
i can't log in to both, though everything in my fb a/c still looks normal from my brother's a/c point of view :P

So since i was so emo-fied.
i watched Hachiko!
made me even more emo.
super nice show :)
MUST WATCH :P

and...



Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Desserts Spelled Backwards

Desserts???
I don't think so. ><

it's the other way around
"Stressed"
!!!!!
@@

Literally @@
Tho' i may not look like that lah! :P
haha.


Yup! just DAY and NIGHT! :D
Before class and after class.
no big deal!
really. NO BIG DEAL.
stress only what.
who's not stress?!

Sigh.
this is what i'm actually blogging about after 2 months of not blogging?!
hahaha.

Anyways.
I've stopped teaching Form 1 maths and Standard 1 ALL subs
already.
Couldn't take it :P
i need a life people!
i need to rest too!!
i'm having classes almost 7 days a week!
YES, including sundays!
HELP!
it's just the 2nd sem!

PT 1 just ended not long ago..
but WOW. did you know that PT 2 is like 1 week + away?!
GREAT!
i just love ACCA!
:P

Gah...
let's not talk about this anymore,
it's getting really depressing ><

On the brighter side....
I PASSED ALL THREE papers...
F1 F2 and F3!
weee!!!
Thank God! :D
I was sooooo afraid that i would fail my F1.
but i passed! i Passed! i PASSED!
weeee.. :P
hehe..
Congratz me :P

okie dokies.
nothing much in today's post :P
coz i really gotta get back to my books..
ttfn
tata for now =D